Spock questions Jim's interest ... and Jim explains.

Just a little first-kiss story.  Fluffy fun.  Gets a little physically descriptive, but no sex.  I think this works in Abrams universe if you asume that Uhura and Spock have either agreed to broaden their horizons or are amicably no longer 'together. 

Jim's feeling a little lonely.  Spock is thinking about his Captain.  Jim steps into his cabin and... well, I'll bet you know where this is going.  Porn.  Unremitting and unapologetic.  Very little plot to go along, but I hope you enjoy anyway.  Please, please leave comments.

Somehow, Jim had never thought of Spock as a sexual being. Or what it might mean should his perception be wrong.  Until now.

Spock meets Captain Kirk.  Spock POV.

This is dark, and a story that drove itself onto the page with great determination.  I knew my husband would be mad that I hadn’t gone to the store as I’d intended, but the story would not wait.  It’s not my story.  It has its own life, and insisted itself into being.  It didn’t explain which universe it was from, or whether Jim has blue eyes or brown.  I see the original series characters in this, but I leave it to the reader to decide.

In some ways it is humorless because there is no softening of reality.  There is the misery of old age, and forgetfulness, and the anger that surely comes with all of that.  And yet this IS Jim Kirk.  He would find humor in life, even if he can find it only at his own expense.  Read this at your own risk.  It stops short – just barely – of character death.  But Spock is there, so at least, at least Jim has that.  If you look hard, there is a tiny bit of fluff and humor – but there is much, much more angst.

Warning – for the final time – don’t read this if you want something light and fluffy.

I am completely unable to find words that are sufficient to convey my thanks to my fantastic betas AKO and Bedwench.  They both saved me from poor word choices, convoluted sentences, and many other little errors that were simply invisible to me after so many reads.  I must mention that AKO also rescued me from making many errors due to my ignorance of proper military behavior and procedure – and graciously forgave my often ungracious comments about the aforementioned behavior.

One last acknowledgement; the concept of the ‘Outlast’ is not my own; it appeared in the novel Battlestations! by Diane Carey and I apologize in advance if I presented it in any way differently than she (or Paramount or Pocket books)  may have liked.  I do not know Diane, but I have read this book many, many times and my reference to it is intended only as homage.  It’s a wonderful book.

K – enough of that, yeah?  This starts out solely with Spock’s POV, but Jim’s comes in later.  I hope you enjoy and PLEASE leave feedback – that means what’s good and what’s not.  I get lots of great ideas from comments – so don’t be shy, righto?!