Reviewer: LSPINGLES Signed
Chapter 1: Complete Essay
Not sure where start. First, let me say I don't need any convincing, but still it is wonderful to read something that just reaffirms everything you know deep down in your heart.
The one item I really enjoyed above was your discussion of the corbomite episode, where Spock starts to say "I'm sor...". He never gets it quite out. I have not seen others focus on that BUT I agree that is huge. It makes Spock question everything. He never wants to let JTK down again, like he did in that moment. Beautiful.
My experience with Trek is a little similar to yours. I started watching the show in reruns every day after school in the early 70s. 5 days a week at 5pm on CTV in Canada. Plus weekends on US TV out of Buffalo. I was probably about 10 or 11. We memorized the lines. My brother and I shouted out names of episodes like we were playing "Name that tune". I can name this episode in 2 seconds... I had a Spock's Galileo 7 poster on my door (replacing Donny Osmand and David Cassidy). When I moved out, it came with me. I bought a replacement recently because it was too worn.
At that time, I just thought of them as the closest friends. I started buying pro novels. When I look back I realize the ones that became my favourites were written by k/s writers (but I had no idea). Somehow they were closer in those books and it seemed fine to me - melding / dieing for one another.
The big moment for me was when I got the novelization of Star Trek: The Motion Picture. I read the definition of t'hy'la. Then JTK's non-denial denial and I thought, they are in love, for sure, 100%. The whole book is a love story to me. Spock trying to deny his love and then learning to accept that this is what is important in life. Kirk trying to get over Spock but being unable to do so. The magic moment when they acknowledge that. The movie to me, as you noted as lumberingly slow, but does capture some of this, but it is the book, that actually gives us the word t'hy'la that really sold me.
Even still I never found slash. I never went to a convention. I just knew it in my heart. I only finally found slash on the internet and I have been buying up fanzines since then to get to the artwork.
Couple of questions for you. 1) The link above does not work for your vid. Do you have an active link where I can see it.
2) Do you think Leonard Nimoy was aware of how slashy "The Search for Spock" was when he made and chose to deliberately do it that way. I mean we spent 3 seasons hearing how "nothing" was more important than the Enterprise to JTK and then he directs a movie where JTK destroys his ship to save Spock (and a son). I recall an interview where he discussed how upset he was that the adverstisers gave that away in the poster - how he thought that was a pivotal moment.
P.S. Sorry for the long-winded comment.Author's Response:
Your comment is lovely! Thank you for sharing your experience of discovering Star Trek. It's been so long since I wrote this essay, I had forgotten about it. :) In answer to your second question, yes, I think Nimoy was fully aware. A behind the scenes story from Shatner reveals that when they were filming the through-the-glass scene from Wrath of Khan, they were having trouble getting it right. They went away to one of their trailers and rehearsed it as lovers. (I believe Shatner said this was his idea, but I wouldn't swear to that—it might have been Nicholas Meyer or Nimoy himself who suggested it.) Then they got what we saw on film in one take. Nimoy was surely aware. As was Roddenberry, of course—and he's credited as one of the two writers (along with Harve Bennett).
As for the vid, it's here: https://vimeo.com/120827324
The password is "jim"
Thanks again for sharing your story!