Penname: angelocustode [Contact] Real name: Sibylle
Member Since: 10/03/2013
Membership status: Member
Bio:

Swiss living in Italy. Born to startrek fandom with the original series and increasingly captured by the intensity of the relationship between Kirk and Spock. 


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Reviews by angelocustode
Strong Medicine by Killa Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstarstarhalf-star [Reviews - 12]
Summary:

Rather prurient PWP in a turbolift. Originally posted in 1998.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Erotica, Established Relationship
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 1916 Read Count: 8916
[Report This] Published: 09/05/2005 Updated: 09/05/2005
Reviewer: angelocustode Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 11/14/2013 Title: Chapter 1: Complete Story

Lovely hot little piece of fiction, and so tender in the end.



Author's Response:

Thank you! I'm so glad you liked it. Thanks for letting me know. :)

Cover of Night by Killa Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 39]
Summary:

While waiting to learn what will come of the fal tor pan, Kirk relives memories of his destructive and secret relationship with Spock. How can he find redemption when Spock doesn't even remember him? Originally posted in 1998. Also appeared in Amazing Grace: Best of the Net.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Angst, Erotica, First Time, Romance
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 12512 Read Count: 14675
[Report This] Published: 09/05/2005 Updated: 09/05/2005
Reviewer: angelocustode Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 05/12/2014 Title: Chapter 1: Complete Story

This is so intense, so achingly deep and moving. Your language is of incredible beauty, flowing, velvety and with that undercurrent of melancholy which makes Jim's heart-voice perfect. This jewel is easily one of the most beautiful things I have ever read. Thank you so much for writing it and sharing it.



Author's Response:

I don't know what to say. Thank you! That's very kind.

Surrender by Killa Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstarstarhalf-star [Reviews - 25]
Summary:

The Captain has been through a rough time, and needs someone else to take the reins for a while. This story contains dominance/submission in a consensual relationship, but the lines of consent are deliberately blurred. Originally posted in 1997.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: McCoy
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Angst, Erotica, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: Bondage, Caveat lector/Choose Not to Warn, Dominance/submission, Dubious consent, Non-consensual sex
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 20441 Read Count: 31259
[Report This] Published: 09/05/2005 Updated: 09/05/2005
Reviewer: angelocustode Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 05/21/2014 Title: Chapter 1: Complete Story

This fic is addictive, I enjoy your writing no end, it has this calm emotional depth that makes me feel as if I was inside the characters. The confusion, the longing the determination, the abandon, it all goes straight to the heart. And that's also the reason why the erotic scenes are so intense...

And then you have some priceless pictures like Jim about to go on duty without his boots on! And some expressions so poetically beautiful like the ember of joy in Jim's chest.



Author's Response:

Thank you. You are very kind. It's great to hear that someone's still enjoying this story after all these years!

What the Heart Remembers by Killa Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstarstarhalf-star [Reviews - 17]
Summary:

A post-fal tor pan story written for the KSOF. Can heroes ever really go home again? Originally posted in 2002. Also appears in the zine Cyberdreams 1.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: Carol Marcus, Gillian Taylor, McCoy, Sarek
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Angst, Erotica, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 13810 Read Count: 9360
[Report This] Published: 09/05/2005 Updated: 09/05/2005
Reviewer: angelocustode Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 05/20/2014 Title: Chapter 1: Complete Story

Hearty thanks to who, having "loved these guys for more than half her lifetime", is able to make them seem so real to us that we can almost touch them, so real that they touch our hearts...deeply!



Author's Response:

What a wonderful comment. Thank you. I'm so glad you enjoyed it!

Sharing the Risk by Killa Rated: Mature Content (Teen) starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 9]
Summary:

While on leave, Spock has taken his courage in his hands and has made the first move...but Kirk's initial response isn't quite what he'd hoped for. Originally posted in 1998.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: Gary Mitchell
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: K/S plus K/other or S/other
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Angst, Erotica, Romance
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 7333 Read Count: 7503
[Report This] Published: 09/05/2005 Updated: 09/05/2005
Reviewer: angelocustode Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 05/09/2014 Title: Chapter 1: Complete Story

Thank you for this deep, poetic moment in the middle of a star-filled night when things slowly fall into place and lifelong hurts finally start to heal.



Author's Response:

Thank you. I really appreciate you reading it. Very glad to hear that you enjoyed it!

Turning Point by Killa Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 33]
Summary:

At the end of the five year mission, Kirk and Spock go to New Orleans and explore the true meaning of decadence. Originally posted to the alt.sex.fetish.startrek newsgroup in 1995. Also appeared in T'hy'la 18.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Angst, Erotica, Romance
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: Turning Point
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 30927 Read Count: 21444
[Report This] Published: 09/05/2005 Updated: 09/05/2005
Reviewer: angelocustode Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 05/24/2014 Title: Chapter 1: Complete Story

I can totally see how this fic and your writing in general has inspired many of the best writers on this Archive. Your style is incredible, you capture so well the subtle attraction we all felt when watching the TOS episodes, that undercurrent of unexpressed longing. It is wonderful how you allow it to take shape and to blossom, the atmosphere so intensely loaded with heat that goes beyond physical need and emotional yearning, that tells of a rightness of this joining that reaches for eternity. To see them crumbling apart in the last section is so painful, it makes me want to yell at them.



Author's Response:

Thank you so much for reading this. You are very kind! I'm sorry about the ending. There was a time when I really loved angst. That time has passed! At least there's a sequel?

I'm in New Orleans right now, actually, so it's sweet to be reminded of this story. :)

Ghost in the Machine by Killa Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 10]
Summary:

Voyager/Classic Trek crossover. Pairings: Kirk/Spock, Kirk/Paris, Paris/Kim. Tom Paris stumbles upon a Pandora's Box of loss and regret. Originally posted in 1996.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: ST:VOY
Genres: K/S plus K/other or S/other
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Angst, Erotica, Hurt/Comfort
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: Crossover
Warnings: Major character death
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 16343 Read Count: 2792
[Report This] Published: 09/06/2005 Updated: 09/06/2005
Reviewer: angelocustode Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 05/30/2014 Title: Chapter 1: Complete Story

Intense, as your writing always is, this story in its undoubtable painfulness ( for Spock, for Paris, for holoKirk and what he was denied) is also incredibly, touchingly gentle. I was thinking about the fact that Spock has had programmed his perception and all he knew about his friend into this program, failing to make it become what HE needed, but imprinting into it the gentleness that was characteristic for his captain and which in the end helped Paris to heal and to go on with his life and his love.

An astonishing piece of writing, thank you very much for sharing it with us.



Author's Response:

Thank you for this wonderful comment. I think only a handful of Voyager episodes had aired when I wrote this, so the characterization of Paris isn't very accurate. I remember having a lot of intense feelings while writing it, though. Funny how I seem to have written the same story over and over without realizing it! (Cover of Night, this one, Bitter Glass, What the Heart... etc.)

Again, I really appreciate your insights, and that you took the time to share them!

Bitter Glass by Killa Rated: Mature Content (Teen) starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 25]
Summary:

A story about regrets and second chances. Faced with the news of Kirk's death in Generations, Spock tells the story of a thirty-year friendship that defied all categorization. (Crossover with Star Trek: TNG) Originally posted in 1996.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: Chekov, McCoy, Original Character(s), Saavik, Sarek, Scott, Sulu, Uhura
Crossover Fandom: ST:TNG
Genres: K/S plus K/other or S/other, Kirk-Spock Friendship
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Angst, Character Study
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: Major character death
Series: None
Chapters: 3 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 95803 Read Count: 22290
[Report This] Published: 09/06/2005 Updated: 09/06/2005
Reviewer: angelocustode Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 10/19/2014 Title: Chapter 3: Part 3

This story left me utterly breathless, it is so sad, but so touchingly beautiful in its careful language and the realism of the suffering, the blindness and lost occasions, the misunderstandings. I was almost certain you would leave us without any hope to see them reunited and am really grateful for the last paragraphs. They ease the weary soul of a reader who has relived with Spock all those decades of dancing around each other. So well conceived and well written, thank you so much for sharing!



Author's Response:

Thank you so much. I appreciate you reading it and taking the time to comment, more than I can say.



Author's Response:

Thank you so much. I appreciate you reading it and taking the time to comment, more than I can say.

Full Circle by Killa Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 24]
Summary:

The sequel to "Turning Point." V'Ger brings Kirk and Spock back together, but can they get past the damage done and start over again? Originally posted in 1997. Also appeared in T'hy'la 20.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: Lori Ciani, McCoy, Original Character(s), Uhura
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: K/S plus K/other or S/other, Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Angst, Erotica, Established Relationship, Romance
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: Turning Point
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 52051 Read Count: 18201
[Report This] Published: 09/06/2005 Updated: 09/06/2005
Reviewer: angelocustode Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 05/26/2014 Title: Chapter 1: none

Your writing has a compelling force and is of an almost painful beauty. After the ending of Turning Point it is good to see them come together again, not easily but dealing with the suffering and overcoming it to head out together again on their silver lady.

The part when they walk together in New Orleans is outstanding in its density, I love the way they both are matured by the years apart, capable of talking, asking and answering in honesty, they way they are now able to look at the other and themselves in depth.

And what to say about the storm that brakes loose once they give in to the magnetism that crackles between them? You write their joining with an achingly poetic beauty, the heat, the breathless desire, the longing for a union in completeness, the need to give and to receive and to grow towards heights never experienced, the will to lose themselves in order to find themselves again in the other.

Thank you for your careful writing, for caressing our souls with your words, for the love and passion you put into it, for the way you have in making us soar to unknown heights together with your characters.



Author's Response:

You are very kind and generous. Thank you. What a treat it is to hear that these stories are still being read and enjoyed! Thank you.

Reviewer: angelocustode Signed
Date: 05/27/2014 Title: Chapter 1: none

Ah, one more thing: I was infinitely touched by Spock saying he would not cancel the years at Gol because they brought him to the present moment. This is so TRUE for all of us, we are the sum of our past experiences and would not be where we are without them ... in any good moment we can be thankful for the dark moments in the past as much as for the golden ones. I love the concept and it suits Spock so!

Twice Upon A Time by Elise Madrid Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstarstarhalf-star [Reviews - 14]
Summary:

Once upon a time, James Kirk had to kill his best friend. Twice upon a time.....

Originally published in Legends 2, by MKASHEF Enterprises. (2002)


Categories: Fiction
Characters: Gary Mitchell
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: None
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: AU Alternate Universe
Warnings: Major character death
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 34337 Read Count: 7231
[Report This] Published: 09/08/2005 Updated: 09/08/2005
Reviewer: angelocustode Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 03/04/2017 Title: Chapter 1: (complete)

Thank you for this long and entirely captivating story of "what might have been" if Mitchell hadn't died. You skilfully tie in the growing attraction of the two men with the lurking danger Mitchell represents. Very satisfying tale indeed!

For Better or Immersed by Farfalla Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 2]
Summary:

Spackle from the TAS episode "The Ambergris Element." Kirk and Spock have been altered without their knowledge into waterbreathing creatures that cannot survive without help on the ship. In a tank in Sickbay, they wait while McCoy tries to figure out how to reverse the change...


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Erotica, Established Relationship, Hurt/Comfort
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 1592 Read Count: 2566
[Report This] Published: 09/08/2005 Updated: 09/08/2005
Reviewer: angelocustode Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 05/10/2014 Title: Chapter 1: For Better or Immersed

Cute, somehow it calls for a sequel, like how their condition or the power to introduce it in others could help the population of the flood threatened world to survive...

That of Which We Do Not Speak by kira_nerys Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 6]
Summary:

It's been a long time since Jim and Spock were together, and Jim is excited, but what happens next is more exciting than he bargained for ... or is it?


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: None
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 9199 Read Count: 6936
[Report This] Published: 09/08/2005 Updated: 09/08/2005
Reviewer: angelocustode Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 10/05/2014 Title: Chapter 1: That of Which We Do Not Speak

Wow, this is easily one of the most beautiful fics I have read on this archive in almost a year since I stumbeled unto it. There is such passion, such vulnerability, such utter longing in every word. And their joining is so hot, so deep, so right. I particularly appreciate the fact that you show them as mature persons who are fully conscious that not everything will be easy from this point onwards.

Brothers with Benefits by Farfalla Rated: Mature Content (Teen) starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 3]
Summary:

After Spock's return from Gol, Kirk and Spock try to define their complex friendship.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: First Time, Romance
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 955 Read Count: 3049
[Report This] Published: 09/08/2005 Updated: 09/08/2005
Reviewer: angelocustode Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 10/17/2015 Title: Chapter 1: Brothers with Benefits

Such a sweet little piece of art. I love their easy interaction, the way they are sure about each other now, how they are essentially home to each other.

There's Always Room for Captain by Farfalla Rated: All Audiences starstarstarstarhalf-star [Reviews - 5]
Summary:

A cave story with a twist.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: First Time, Romance
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 2600 Read Count: 5584
[Report This] Published: 09/08/2005 Updated: 09/08/2005
Reviewer: angelocustode Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 10/17/2015 Title: Chapter 1: There's Always Room for Captain

What an unusual idea and what you have made of it! Great work!

Grief by kira_nerys Rated: All Audiences starstarstarstarhalf-star [Reviews - 3]
Summary:

Kirk turns to a friend in his grief


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk-Spock Friendship
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: None
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 1189 Read Count: 3773
[Report This] Published: 09/09/2005 Updated: 09/09/2005
Reviewer: angelocustode Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 10/05/2014 Title: Chapter 1: N/A

Dense and deep, adorable!

In the Land of Lost and Found by kira_nerys Rated: All Audiences starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 4]
Summary:

When Kirk disappears from the Enterprise B, Spock cannot believe he is dead ...


Categories: Ficlets
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: ST:TNG
Genres: Kirk-Spock Friendship, Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: None
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: Major character death
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 673 Read Count: 3921
[Report This] Published: 09/09/2005 Updated: 09/09/2005
Reviewer: angelocustode Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 10/05/2014 Title: Chapter 1: N/A

Sure they will!

Shackled by kira_nerys Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 6]
Summary:

A very vivid dream I had ... K and S having fun. PWP


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Erotica, Romance
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 2893 Read Count: 3608
[Report This] Published: 09/09/2005 Updated: 09/09/2005
Reviewer: angelocustode Signed
Date: 03/11/2014 Title: Chapter 1: N/A

Beautifully hot and incredibly tender. I love it!

Summary:

Kirk and Spock discuss the differences between Love and the Vulcan concept of T'hy'la


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Romance
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 1325 Read Count: 8383
[Report This] Published: 09/09/2005 Updated: 09/09/2005
Reviewer: angelocustode Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 10/05/2014 Title: Chapter 1: N/A

A lovely, deep coloured gem, leaving everything open...

I Shall Do Neither ... by kira_nerys Rated: Mature Content (Teen) starstarstarstar [Reviews - 3]
Summary:

What goes on in Spock's mind when he thinks he has killed Jim? Set during "Amok Time"


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Angst
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 1468 Read Count: 2723
[Report This] Published: 09/09/2005 Updated: 09/09/2005
Reviewer: angelocustode Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 10/05/2014 Title: Chapter 1: N/A

Excellent fill-in of what the episode leaves unrevealed.