I have been told that the way I write K/S is an insult to fandom and it is wrong. I have been told if I cannot write them right, I should not write them at all and share my stories. I have thought a lot about that and maybe it's true. Maybe I, as a gay man, should not write stories about gay men.
My Kirk is not the shiny hero and my Spock will never be the ruthless savage. They love, they have flaws, they maybe aren't good for each other, they hurt each other and they save each other and sometimes their friendship, their love isn't enough and sometimes it is. But that's life. Maybe my views concerning the ship are different from the rest.
I thank you all for your comments. This time I will not come back.