When by Tech Duinn


He was always going to lose him. It was only a question of when.


AN: Because I was in a sort of fatalistic mood.

Categories: Ficlets Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk-Spock Friendship, Kirk/Spock Pre-Slash, Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Angst
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe, Abrams Universe
Warnings: Major character death
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 229 Read: 5205 Published: 12/13/2010 Updated: 12/13/2010

1. Chapter 1 by Tech Duinn

Chapter 1 by Tech Duinn


It doesn’t matter if it’s twenty years down the road or ten, if he realizes the full breadth of what he’s lost or is still caught up in willful and sullen ignorance. It doesn’t matter if his death was good or just or honorable, doesn’t matter if they got to say goodbye, if they saw the reaper coming or were able to count the seconds until brain activity ceased. It doesn’t matter that they never got to say the words, never realized those words had any meaning for them, forgot that those words used to be a buoy in the storm. It doesn’t matter that they were never together, had only been together for a few weeks, a few years, a few decades, hadn’t been together for far too long. It doesn’t matter that they’ve made love hundreds of times, dozens of times, one time, never. It doesn’t matter if their last words were sweet and meaningful, were hate-filled and angry and resentful. It doesn’t matter that he was ready, never saw it coming, accepted his fate, wanted to shout recriminations to the ceiling. It doesn’t matter that he was sorry, that he was resigned, that he was a peace. It doesn’t matter that he knew, had no idea, had an inkling, had a hope, had a dream.

Dead is dead, and nothing changes that.




End Notes:

Thanks to broadwanime for giving it a once-over. I blame all mistakes on her.

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