Date: 07/02/2010 7:52 PM Title: Complete Story
:( well that was depressing . great writing though, i could feel the story
Date: 06/22/2010 4:36 PM Title: Complete Story
That was so sad and beautiful at the same time.
Date: 02/20/2010 9:27 PM Title: Complete Story
I even got body reactions from reading that story. It totally absorbed me. I trembled while reading it, sometimes from pain, sometimes from pleasure. If someone should ask about the value of fanfiction, one should read this and its sequel for an answer. Awesome, beyond words...
Date: 11/14/2009 8:02 PM Title: Complete Story
So, reading further, what's really disquieting/depressing about this story (and btw, major points for so effectively building the mood) is Spock's passivity and submission. He's confronted by things that he knows are wrong, but he can't say no--to Starfleet or to Kirk. Kirk seems more or less in character. Is Spock out of character? Well, we've just established that he's severely sleep deprived, which would put anyone in an altered state of consciousness. (Plausibility established.) Easy to see how things could spiral out of control. Want to shake Spock up, tell him to take a couple days off, get some rest, come back and stick up for himself. Suppressed/subsumed aggression ==> depression.
No, I don't think this story is as bad as you keep saying it is--not at all. But at Kirk says, "You're not exactly seeing us at our best." As fans, we like to see them at their best.
Date: 11/14/2009 7:43 PM Title: Complete Story
Wow, Killa, I owe you a gigantic apology for the stuff I said about this story back in the early 2000's. Now with 100% more Perspective™--everyone should try it!
Kirk is drowning in this story. Back then I thought it was because of his attraction to Spock. Reading the first few paragraphs, it's completely clear that it's because they've taken the Enterprise away from him, and he's reaching for Spock like for a life preserver, but it doesn't work (because: TMP). Total lack of reading comprehension. Somebody shoulda slapped me upside the head. Of course, nobody could tell me anything back then.
I was a complete ass and called everybody homophobic (among other things). Totally delusional. Have to laugh at myself now. I'm really sorry you had to be on the receiving end of my utter stupidity. You have my permission to tell everyone I'm a witless c*nty wanker. Or a wanky c*nt. If the shoe fits--!
Ha, *snrk.* I know I've been in fandom a long time because I don't even remember your negative comments. (Don't take that personally -- I don't remember much of anything that happened longer ago than last week!) I'm sure there's some justification for whatever you said, and any other criticisms people might have made. It's not like I knew what I was doing when I wrote this. But thanks for giving it another shot, anyway. As I've said many times, the one thing you have to say about this story and its sequel is that they were written from a very earnest and heartfelt place. For whatever that's worth!
There's something about context, I think, where if you come into a fandom and everybody's praising something they loved because they read it at just the right time and in just the right headspace, and you read it and are less than thrilled, you feel like, wtf? What are you people smoking? I don't think you're the first person who probably experienced some of that with this story. Definitely one of those, right time, right place things when it was originally posted. :)
Date: 11/14/2009 7:15 PM Title: Complete Story
What the hell ... can't help reminiscing about this story.
I've got "Smooth Operator" playing on endless loop in my head considering this story--here, have my earworm. No need to aaahsk, he's a smooth operator...
This story made me want to visit NOLA. I was going to take the Sunset Limited but I never had the right connection of money, free time, and cajones. Then Katrina hit and washed the tracks out and Amtrak decided to permanently cancel the NOLA to JAX portion. I hate the Southeast.
I never knew Turning Point was posted to ASFS ... now there's ancient history. In 1995 B5 was the hottest thing ever and I was on midwinter.com like every single day.
I probably read this story around 97, 98 right when I was coming out and super militant. I'd never been able to sit all the way through TMP, but I was on a TOS kick ... and TOS is generally upbeat ... so I reacted badly. I only wanted positive stories about same-sex relationships, dammit. I totally bitched out the person who recced it to me. In retrospect I can see this is just a riff on TMP.
Full Circle is actually pretty good. I liked it. One thing's clear: Killa caused a sensation and helped inspire a whole bolus of K/S writers and fans. That and scifi channel running the unedited TOS eps. K/S went from zero to damn near taking over ASCEM for a while. Then the giant flame war and everyone took their toys and went home. Then I showed up and nobody was there but Saavant (who is a very cool person but pretty much g.a.f.f. now) and I had a sad. :(
RIP Usenet, although I know it won't. Last time I went it was like Mad Max over there.
Date: 10/12/2009 11:09 AM Title: Complete Story
Oh my GOD!
Date: 09/02/2009 9:52 AM Title: Complete Story
This is the first K/S slash I've read - and still my favourite. So touching, so intelligent, well written. The characters are extremely well developed and thought over, their actions and motives seem very probable. No false note here, no unnecessary words.
And it actually made me cry...
Great work. Thank you very much and please, please, write more.
Thank you, I really appreciate you reading it. :) It was the first K/S I ever read, too - heh.
Date: 07/06/2009 12:43 AM Title: Complete Story
Absolutly devine, the correct combination of everything, superb, sexy,angsty and romantic captured wonderfully and with all of its sadness.
I really liked 'He felt it shift in him, miraculous surrender, and suddenly he found that he could let go. It would be all right. Jim would catch him.'
at that point I didn't know whether to smile or cry.
What kind feedback! Thank you so much. I'm really glad to hear this touched you. <3
Date: 05/30/2009 8:39 PM Title: Complete Story
your story was....amazing! you captured their thoughts and their personalities like an artist painting a masterpiece....
never give up writing!
hope to read more from you...
Date: 09/24/2008 2:15 PM Title: Complete Story
This was beautifully written. I've never been to New Orleans and you managed to evoke the mood and setting so well. I felt as if I was standing in the rain next to the characters. Splendid writing.
Date: 02/29/2008 5:05 AM Title: Complete Story
this story is amazing. the writing is fabulous, the descriptions are even better. I love how the story flows from one scene to the next. Nothing seems out of place and the characterization is great. I think I've read this and it's sequel about three times now. :-) Amazing work.
Date: 11/16/2006 8:01 PM Title: Complete Story
This story and its sequel, Full Circle, changed my life and continue to be my all-time favorite stories. They are what I reach for when I have had a bad day - I call it a bit of Killa therapy and it works every time. I don't think I can ever find the words to adequately express my gratitude.