To Heal a Sundered Soul by Arcadii

To Heal a Sundered Soul


I’ve never made a challenge before, so forgive me if this is kind of rambling.  Abrams universe, please with fluff kept to a minimum and lots of angst, but a happy ending is a must! Spock/bottom and if you want to make it an mpreg, I wouldn’t kick up a fuss about it.


Spock and Jim are unconsiously linked and are able to access knowledge from each other.


Spock is mentally mature, but not sexually.  Technically he's still going through Vulcan puberty.



The story starts:


Ambassador Sarek and his pregnant wife were on a VDC (Vulcan Diplomatic Corps) ship when they received the distress call from the Kelvin.  Amanda and Winona go into labor at the same time.  James and Spock are born simultaneously.  The Vulcan ship rescues several of the shuttles, Winona and Jim’s included.  They are both taken to the healing bay where Winona refuses contact with her premature baby, irrationally blaming him for his father’s death. 


Spock is unable to nurse due to his mother’s milk being incompatible with his physiology, but the Vulcan healer wants to mix Amanda’s milk with Vulcan nutrients to make it acceptable.  Amanda’s milk is being humanly stubborn and refuses to come in for a manual breast pump.  One of the healers gets the idea for Amanda to wet-nurse a premature Jim, giving him what he needs and getting Amanda’s body the stimulus it requires for milk production.


Both babies are kept in a bassinet in Amanda’s room where they snuggle together and cry when separated.  While nursing the small bundle, Amanda forms an attachment to Jim.  When the ship gets back to Vulcan, Winona and her son are transferred to a Starfleet ship for their journey back to Earth.  Amanda and Spock grieve for the loss.


Spock is given a rudimentary bond to T’Pring at age seven, but gets painful headaches that he doesn’t tell his parents about.  He is aware of her contempt for him and thinks that her rejection is the cause of his difficulties.  He wants to please his father and learns to be twice the Vulcan as his peers, but no matter how well he does, he always feels empty and lacking.  At sixteen his father wants him to create a betrothal bond with T’Pring so that they will be drawn together at his Ponn Farr.  His mind and body rebel at the thought of having any more contact with her and he runs away to Earth.  Deciding that the only place he would feel welcome in the whole galaxy would be Starfleet, he uses Andorian? years (on Vulcan, he’s still a minor and a ward of his father until his first ponn farr) which is technically not a lie, to meet the age requirements.


Winona finds the first man she can stomach to marry and saddle with her children so that she can resume her career in Starfleet, preferably as far from Earth as she can get.  Frank is an alcoholic opportunist who is as opposite in looks and temperament to George Kirk as Winona could find.  He sees Winona as an easy meal ticket, spending her salary on himself and letting the kids live in squalor; he is physically and mentally abusive.  Looking for love in all of the wrong places, Jim tries to fill his emptiness with sex and eventually, following Sam’s lead runs away and winds up in San Francisco.


Amanda leaves Sarek over the treatment of her son and goes back to Earth.  She’s sure that Spock will want to join Starfleet, so makes her way to San Francisco where she gets a job as an English professor at a local college.  Knowing that Spock needs to prove his choices are right, she monitors him, but does not approach.  She bumps into Jim and he feels familiar, so she invites him to stay with her.  He eases the loneliness she feels for her own son and she fills part of his need for family.  In their four years together, she helps Jim finish school to enroll in Starfleet Academy.


Four years have passed and Spock, as expected has excelled and is now a full professor where he meets a brash cadet whom he’s immediately attracted to; he doesn’t understand the feelings and avoids the young human.  Unlike most Vulcan’s, Spock finds it easy to interact with humans – it’s like he just knows how to avoid socially awkward situations.  He’s had people show sexual interest in him before, but without encouragement, they usually fade away or turn to companionship, like his friend, Nyota. 


Jim feels an immediate attraction to a Vulcan professor on campus, but doesn’t tell Amanda.  He doesn’t know much about her, except that she used to be married, has lost her son and whenever anything Vulcan comes up, it upsets her.  Wanting to impress Professor Spock, Jim hacks into the Vulcan’s pet project, the programming of the Kobayashi Maru test.  He doesn’t need anyone’s help to do it; it just seems to come to him.


*Your preference after the disciplinary hearing and Vulcan’s distress call.


*Spock saves his father and Sarek is forced to acknowledge that his son’s choices were valid.  He also informs a grieving Spock that his mother is safe on Earth.


*Jim goads Spock into losing control and the minute their flesh touches for the first time, the t’hy’la bond triggers and Spock goes into ponn farr, but they don’t have time to consummate it now.  Once the dust settles, Spock discovers his chronic headaches are gone and Dr. M’Benga deduces that they were caused by Spock’s mind rejecting the bond with T’Pring.


Bonus: Amanda chewing out Winona for her neglect and blackmailing her for Jim’s custody.


Bonus:  Tortured Sarek, thinking his family would be better off without him, grows more understanding of emotions. 


Bonus: Gaila (not dying) and being in a stable relationship with Nyota.


Bonus: Happy family reunion (Sarek, Amanda, Spock and Jim) in San Francisco.


Bonus: Bones getting the last word.  


If you take this on, you’ll earn my eternal gratitude!

Categories: Fiction
Characters: Amanda, Chekov, Chris Pike, Gaila, McCoy, Sarek, Scott, Sulu, T'Pring, Uhura
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