Penname: nhrc [Contact] Real name: meyrav
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Summary:

Another piece of shameless K/S melodrama. Now with endnotes! Notes to the series:

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1. The series is set to begin in the time after Spock’s death fixing the engine reactor in The Wrath of Khan (directed by Nicholas Meyer, 1982) and his resuscitation, begun on planet Genesis and later completed through fal-tor-pan on Vulcan, in The Search for Spock (directed by Leonard Nimoy, 1984).
2.
A shameless K/S melodrama is the comically self-deprecating subtitle for Killa’s beautifully serious, deeply-written story Turning Point, originally posted to the alt.sex.fetish.startrek newsgroup in 1995 (also appeared in «T'hy'la», 18), now at http://seacouver.slashcity.net/killa/turnpt.html and at http://ksarchive.com, together with the sequel Full Circle, originally posted in 1997 (also appeared in «T'hy'la», 20). I like the turn of phrase so much that (shamelessly) I robbed it.
3. Fal-tor-pan: Ancient, difficult Vulcan ritual of rebirthing the deceased, by reuniting the elements of a whole composed by the body (cellular matter, or protoplasm), the soul (life, functioning metabolism), and the katra, or spirit (personal individuality, including experiences and memories). The Vulcan concept of this triad shows some similarity with Terran alchemical philosophies in the early centuries a.D.
4. The series becomes AU in part 9, in a way opened by Elise Madrid with
One particular harbour, originally published in «T'hy'la», 23, October 2003, and its companion piece Duty’s Call, originally published in «Legends», 3, November, 2003, both now at http://ksarchive.com. Be forewarned (further warnings in due time).
5. Most Vulcan words and phrases come from
The Vulcan Language Institute Reclamation Project (see in particular the page at http://www.stogeek.com/wiki/Vulcan_Language_Lesson_19), the Vulcan Dictionary at http://members.tripod.com/~tshala/vul-dict.html and The Vulcan Information Centre for Extravulcanians at http://www.marketaz.co.uk/StarTrek/Vulcan/Vulcan.html. The others are personal knowledge.
6. Working on this took me the best part of a year. The endnotes have been a way to keep part of my mind at safety distance, while the rest boldly went where I’d never gone before. The endnotes used to be footnotes, but it seems the posting voodoo can’t pick them up as such.
7. Copyrights are duly mentioned wherever possible. The webpages mentioned are those where I first read the stories I quote; many of them have now also been posted here.

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8. The original version of the series has also pictures. It may be that at some time in the future I’ll get a website and post the whole stuff there.


Parent Series: None
Categories: Fiction, Poetry
Characters: Amanda, McCoy, Uhura
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Character Study, Established Relationship, First Time, Humor, Hurt/Comfort
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: Caveat lector/Choose Not to Warn, Infidelity, Major character death
Challenges: None
Stories: 12
Open: Closed [Report This]
Reviewer: nhrc Signed
Date: 10/28/2011 Title: Two lives, two deaths

I do not think of you as a writer. I see you as an explorer
Passed many lives until you're done, do not doubt it.
You have arrived to the depths, and there was no desert that you did not interrogate
Your writing is so exposed. It stunned me
Yet retained a minor
See you at the next adventure



Author's Response:

I may be wrong

but I feel like I know you

o friend whose conversation

flows into poetry.

Minor is what we all are

until the stories end and we

finally --finally-- see.

“Oh my”: death is no less an adventure

than all the rest has been.

Thank you.

Strong Medicine by Killa Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstarstarhalf-star [Reviews - 10]
Summary:

Rather prurient PWP in a turbolift. Originally posted in 1998.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Erotica, Established Relationship
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 1916 Read Count: 8722
[Report This] Published: 09/05/2005 Updated: 09/05/2005
Reviewer: nhrc Signed starstar
Date: 01/22/2011 Title: Chapter 1: Complete Story

Charming!

Does this medicine can be ordered on Web?

Cover of Night by Killa Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 39]
Summary:

While waiting to learn what will come of the fal tor pan, Kirk relives memories of his destructive and secret relationship with Spock. How can he find redemption when Spock doesn't even remember him? Originally posted in 1998. Also appeared in Amazing Grace: Best of the Net.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Angst, Erotica, First Time, Romance
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 12512 Read Count: 14422
[Report This] Published: 09/05/2005 Updated: 09/05/2005
Reviewer: nhrc Signed star
Date: 01/20/2011 Title: Chapter 1: Complete Story

(Crying inside) stupid! They are such fools! They are so stupid they do not even know!

Four hours. Four hours, round the long It took me to read this Charter until the end.

Feel like a number of rolling live I while reading. Life were created, others ended, stars were discovered, worlds destroyed, and all of these - a girl with a face attached computer monitor. Calls and unconscious events.

It was exhausting. Not just because it's a foreign language to me. I do not know with the term is "sympathy" or "empathy" you identify with the feelings of others or feel their pain.
Hard to read when the eyes are overflowing.

I have no more words - It's overwhelming what you  achieve here

Reviewer: nhrc Signed starstarstarstarhalf-star
Date: 01/22/2011 Title: Chapter 1: Complete Story

(Second Reading)
I do not understand it. Do not understand them.
It's like a labyrinth .. maybe like that built the human soul: twist, unknown to her heart forever endless.
How we are locked within us.
It hurts. You can't read it without feeling real pain.
It's so amazing how the words of a stranger pouring among us as a powerful potion.
I feel like a patient. i feal ill

Maybe there's no need, but I can not stop myself to think ... could you write Spock's point of view?

The last paragraph ... Do you have any idea how powerful is it?
Is like a living thing
I held my breath all the way ... then I started to tear!
Oh my God, Who could do such a thing: make a Pyaktobioat characters enter into the heart?



Author's Response:

I am so sorry -- I didn't get notified of your comments on this story! I just saw this one when I received another comment, and I feel terrible that I didn't respond sooner. Thank you for sharing your emotional reaction with me. I'm pleased that this story touched you.

It would be difficult, but interesting, to write Spock's POV for this story! It's been so long since I wrote it, and I remember that I struggled with the story because it was difficult for me to get into the painful headspace it required.

Reviewer: nhrc Signed
Date: 06/07/2011 Title: Chapter 1: Complete Story

You do not have to apologize (* smiles * I forgive you)
Really long time since I read this story, file it in your favorites, maybe I'll read it again someday. But that would require me to large forces, forces that I don't have right now.
I can not imagine how you must have felt during the writing of this story, with what you had to face within yourself.
Do you walking around with sadness, even after you finish it? Physical  and /or mental exhaustion?

I do not believe you could read such depth, such pain,
Without leave you bruised..And god, you wrote it!

I would not want you to return to this so painful place again, not even for another POV



Author's Response: Thank you for your kind feedback, and for reading this. I do remember this story affecting me a lot while writing it. I wrote it very quickly, over the space of a day or two -- it was one of those that told itself. I think that what it's really about is the moment when you realize that there will always be a divide between yourself and those you love, and that you have no choice but to love anyway.

Surrender by Killa Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstarstarhalf-star [Reviews - 25]
Summary:

The Captain has been through a rough time, and needs someone else to take the reins for a while. This story contains dominance/submission in a consensual relationship, but the lines of consent are deliberately blurred. Originally posted in 1997.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: McCoy
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Angst, Erotica, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: Bondage, Caveat lector/Choose Not to Warn, Dominance/submission, Dubious consent, Non-consensual sex
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 20441 Read Count: 30884
[Report This] Published: 09/05/2005 Updated: 09/05/2005
Reviewer: nhrc Signed starstarhalf-star
Date: 01/22/2011 Title: Chapter 1: Complete Story

New Record: Your story took me half a day to read!
Proportional control - surrender were less frightening than you specified (but thanks for thinking of us) but after you read you "For the Potions Master's Amusement, " you immune almost everything thing.
Out of it remaining biological black cloud hanging and unresolved. The story contained all the seasoning and juice that I love: pain, dealing with inner demons, control emotion fear from, loss, passion who can not get enough and love that crosses through hell and back.

Another unforgettable reading experience that I can't share: that is just between me and myself

What the Heart Remembers by Killa Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstarstarhalf-star [Reviews - 17]
Summary:

A post-fal tor pan story written for the KSOF. Can heroes ever really go home again? Originally posted in 2002. Also appears in the zine Cyberdreams 1.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: Carol Marcus, Gillian Taylor, McCoy, Sarek
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Angst, Erotica, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 13810 Read Count: 9120
[Report This] Published: 09/05/2005 Updated: 09/05/2005
Reviewer: nhrc Signed starhalf-star
Date: 01/23/2011 Title: Chapter 1: Complete Story

(Compressed face) sad for me. So sad to me ... So there is really no relief at the end (sigh) Oh .. these stories will kill me slowly

Small Packages by T Jonesy Rated: Mature Content (Teen) starstarstarstar [Reviews - 18]
Summary:

It's Spock's birthday, and Kirk has found the perfect gift -- but when he makes a wager on it with McCoy, extreme silliness ensues. Originally posted in 2002.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: McCoy, Uhura
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: First Time, Humor, Romance
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 24776 Read Count: 6778
[Report This] Published: 09/06/2005 Updated: 09/06/2005
Reviewer: nhrc Signed starhalf-star
Date: 01/24/2011 Title: Chapter 1: none

>I want to die now so embarrassed ... I can not take it!
>It's too embarrassing to read ... and it goes retrograde!
>No! >No! >No! >Stop him on the strip in public! >Poor Spock!
>I can not go on .. please, please it would be smart enough to withstand decent Jim.
>Oh Joy ... I'd rather be a dentist than read right now.
>you did?
>Pahahahahahahah (choking with laughter) Oh dear ....
>Auhuc and it is getting better ....
>(Slaps on my face) and returns to be intolerable
>I'll tell you what to do with the evening much better tolerated - if not get out of bed ... or Quarter!
>Oh What a trauma this child for generations just passed.
>Sorry ... I can not finish it!

In a Pinch by Farfalla Rated: All Audiences starstarstarstarhalf-star [Reviews - 3]
Summary:

On St. Patrick's Day, Spock has a Big Sekrit Evol Plan to get some nookie from his captain, but there are complications. (humor)


Categories: Fiction
Characters: Chapel, Chekov, McCoy
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: First Time, Humor
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 2687 Read Count: 4555
[Report This] Published: 09/08/2005 Updated: 09/08/2005
Reviewer: nhrc Signed
Date: 07/10/2012 Title: Chapter 1: In a Pinch

Oh, what a nice story.
You were always unconventional and original ideas to bring those two together.

The Impossible Possibility by Farfalla Rated: Mature Content (Teen) [Reviews - 5]
Summary:

Kirk and Spock have their first intimate encounter in a melded dream. When is a first time not a first time?


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: First Time
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 2049 Read Count: 2498
[Report This] Published: 09/08/2005 Updated: 09/08/2005
Reviewer: nhrc Signed
Date: 07/10/2012 Title: Chapter 1: The Impossible Possibility

Oh, I remember it now: Years ago I read this story in your site.
You can not forget such ending.

Linguistics by Farfalla Rated: Mature Content (Teen) [Reviews - 2]
Summary:

Spock kisses in a different language. Printed in the KiSCon 2004 Contest zine.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: First Time, Romance
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 877 Read Count: 2167
[Report This] Published: 09/08/2005 Updated: 09/08/2005
Reviewer: nhrc Signed
Date: 07/18/2012 Title: Chapter 1: Linguistics

This love letter was so charming.
I was fascinated.
Beautifully written ... especially the last paragraph.

Summary:

After Spock has died in "The Wrath of Khan", Kirk relives that terrible moment in his dreams--with a different, happier ending.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Angst, Erotica, Established Relationship
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: Major character death
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 964 Read Count: 1458
[Report This] Published: 09/08/2005 Updated: 09/08/2005
Reviewer: nhrc Signed
Date: 11/20/2011 Title: Chapter 1: The Subconscious Has a Logic All Its Own

Where do you bring this miracle?
Funny, you know ... bring out the best that in tales, into the cold world and this mechanical
And you know what?
At that moment, I believed in that
I believed you.
How I grieved about it ...
(Smiles) But what I love in this world of fanfiction is like the greatest tales book
There will always be another world, another dimension, to do justice to these lovers
See you next time

i Wake to You by Farfalla Rated: All Audiences starstarstarstarhalf-star [Reviews - 8]
Summary:

What if Spock never went to Sickbay at the end of Amok Time?


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: First Time, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 1551 Read Count: 9176
[Report This] Published: 09/08/2005 Updated: 09/08/2005
Reviewer: nhrc Signed starstarhalf-star
Date: 01/25/2011 Title: Chapter 1: I Wake to You

Greece .... how touching! I wish it were longer, but still charming

Flux Ęterna by Farfalla Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 3]
Summary:

Kirk and Spock make love in a cherry tree, enjoying their reunification after Spock returns from Gol.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Romance
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 979 Read Count: 1741
[Report This] Published: 09/08/2005 Updated: 09/08/2005
Reviewer: nhrc Signed
Date: 06/25/2015 Title: Chapter 1: Flux Ęterna

(Shrunken face happily) I can sob from excitedly .

Brothers with Benefits by Farfalla Rated: Mature Content (Teen) starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 3]
Summary:

After Spock's return from Gol, Kirk and Spock try to define their complex friendship.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: First Time, Romance
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 955 Read Count: 2996
[Report This] Published: 09/08/2005 Updated: 09/08/2005
Reviewer: nhrc Signed
Date: 07/19/2012 Title: Chapter 1: Brothers with Benefits

nice...I liked the humor of it.

There's Always Room for Captain by Farfalla Rated: All Audiences starstarstarstarhalf-star [Reviews - 5]
Summary:

A cave story with a twist.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: First Time, Romance
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 2600 Read Count: 5252
[Report This] Published: 09/08/2005 Updated: 09/08/2005
Reviewer: nhrc Signed
Date: 07/21/2012 Title: Chapter 1: There's Always Room for Captain

Yuck,
For a moment I thought the captain turned to the material which created the soldier from Terminator 2!
Ihat was touching and amusing.

Resolution by Lyrastar Rated: Mature Content (Teen) starstarstarstarhalf-star [Reviews - 5]
Summary:

The time after the first time.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: First Time
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 1099 Read Count: 3235
[Report This] Published: 09/09/2005 Updated: 09/09/2005
Reviewer: nhrc Signed
Date: 07/18/2012 Title: Chapter 1: Resolution

Charming indeed

Fever by Lyrastar Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 10]
Summary:

From the KiScon 2004 zine


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Angst, Erotica
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 984 Read Count: 4252
[Report This] Published: 09/09/2005 Updated: 09/09/2005
Reviewer: nhrc Signed
Date: 11/20/2011 Title: Chapter 1: Fever

(Nods in agreement)
One of the fascinating wonders of the universe!

Friends and Foes by kira_nerys Rated: All Audiences [Reviews - 3]
Summary:

Vignette, set during the episode "Bread and Circuses." McCoy forces Spock to face his human emotions. The dialogue is taken directly from this episode word by word.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: None
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 1167 Read Count: 5115
[Report This] Published: 09/09/2005 Updated: 09/09/2005
Reviewer: nhrc Signed
Date: 12/28/2013 Title: Chapter 1: N/A

So why do not you continue to write?

Talk Dirty To Me, Captain! by kira_nerys Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstar [Reviews - 2]
Summary:

Kirk talks dirty to Spock. An all dialogue experiment.


Categories: Ficlets
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Erotica, Humor
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 612 Read Count: 2401
[Report This] Published: 09/09/2005 Updated: 09/09/2005
Reviewer: nhrc Signed
Date: 11/20/2011 Title: Chapter 1: N/A

(Completely stunned face)
Oh ..
(searching for words)
Wow ..
(Is that a word?)
you definitely not overdone with the name of the story!