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Penname: Tatya [Contact] Real name:
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What Lies Beneath by Ragdoll Rated: Mature Content (Teen) starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 20]
Summary:

Spock, in typical Vulcan fashion, has withdrawn himself from the Enterprise, her crew, and especially her Captain, and Jim is determined to find out why. OR: If a Vulcan has an emotional reaction, and there’s no one around to see it, does it still have any impact?


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Hurt/Comfort
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: Abrams Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 7337 Read Count: 11956
[Report This] Published: 05/14/2009 Updated: 05/14/2009
Reviewer: Tatya Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 05/15/2009 Title: Chapter 1: Story

Well... that is... just... Perfect. Really. It shows perfectly this "new" Spock and Kirk, the pain I am sure will make them come together. Spock's desperate cry for help (in the guise of a not-so-good privacy computer program) was SO in character... and Kirk determination. They won't lose, no. Poor Uhura, I am rather sure she couldn't understand Spock, either. And, I hadn't see it, but you are right... a 11 years old child who goes towards a cliff looks really like a suicide attempt. After all the movie had a thing for parallel scene. I love this. More, please? é.è

Author's Response: Yeah, the movie did have a love of symmetry. I'm glad you saw them as IC! The original Spock and Kirk were such... great... smart... sneaky men. I had to throw some of that in here! I'm grateful to know it worked!

Summary:

"The breakdown of one relationship followed by the transition into another, or: How Uhura learns that sometimes, these things just happen." Written originally for the st_xi_kink meme on LJ for the prompt of Kirk and Spock's relationship developing while Spock is still with Uhura, but this turned out to have no kink. Set in Abrams 'verse.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: Uhura
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: K/S plus K/other or S/other
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Angst, Character Study
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: Abrams Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 2737 Read Count: 6701
[Report This] Published: 05/20/2009 Updated: 05/20/2009
Reviewer: Tatya Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 05/21/2009 Title: Chapter 1: don't last like the feeling

Well, this story has something of perfect in it ^____^ I loved it! I can totally see this, really. I can't say I don't like in itself the S/U pairing, just that in the movie it didn't get much focus... it is all about Kirk and Spock XD And, your view of their rivalry that became friendship and then love is beautiful. I also like the format, very Uhura-like (she is an orderly person in the movie after all!). Good job, I hope to read more from you!^_^

Shotgun by Penknife Rated: All Audiences starstarstarstar [Reviews - 6]
Summary:

One thing Kirk never expected.


Categories: Ficlets
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Humor
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 398 Read Count: 4853
[Report This] Published: 05/25/2009 Updated: 05/25/2009
Reviewer: Tatya Signed
Date: 05/26/2009 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

Lol, bittersweet :)

Jim Kirk School of Diplomacy by Kungfunurse Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstarstar [Reviews - 7]
Summary:

Kirk has the Enterprise, he's got a kickin' first officer, but does he have what it takes to keep it all?


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Pre-Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Action/Plot
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: Abrams Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 2881 Read Count: 4007
[Report This] Published: 05/25/2009 Updated: 05/25/2009
Reviewer: Tatya Signed starstarstarstarhalf-star
Date: 05/26/2009 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

Lol, wonderful!^_^ so much Kirk-like... he will soon learn, won't he? XD and we know he is not space puppy! XD

Hopes to read more from you!^_^



Author's Response:

Thank you very much for the feedback!  Yeah, he's got a lot to learn, but fortunately he's also got Spock to watch his back.  Attentively.  Spock watches Kirk's ass, erm, back, verrrrry attentively.  *G*

Similar Activities by Mithrigil Rated: Mature Content (Teen) starstarstarstar [Reviews - 9]
Summary: "I am aware that you may not rely on these testimonials in order to appoint me, but the Admiralty will require sufficient documentation to verify my commission."

Also, Kirk does not know where his towel is.
Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash, Polyamorous
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Character Study, Erotica, First Time
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: Abrams Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 8195 Read Count: 5898
[Report This] Published: 05/26/2009 Updated: 05/26/2009
Reviewer: Tatya Signed
Date: 05/27/2009 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

I agree with everything Amanda wrote :) he Spock's POV is very well done, and the situation totally believable. I just miss something of Kirk and Spock "special" relationship here (they are two guys who have sex, period). The story is very well written though, and believable and hot :D



Author's Response: Thank you so much for your review! I agree that something's unsaid between the two of them here, I don't think they're quite comfortable enough with each other to start showing signs of the intimacy we know TOS Kirk and Spock to have. But there will be more fic for them, here--and I'll address that issue, no doubt at all.

Going Mental by Keelywolfe Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstarstarhalf-star [Reviews - 10]
Summary:

Set just after Kirk was made captain but before they leave Earth, Spock has a little question for the new captain of the Enterprise.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Erotica
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: Abrams Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 3 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 8786 Read Count: 15139
[Report This] Published: 05/31/2009 Updated: 06/30/2009
Reviewer: Tatya Signed
Date: 06/02/2009 Title: Chapter 1: Going Mental

Oh, this is interesting ;) I loved Heat, and I do hope you will continue this little serie. What will young Spock do with the knoweledge his older self and the other kirk had been together for years?! XD My first guess is: call older Spock... but then maybe not... not immediatly at least XD

very good! ^_^ thank you, it is so much them XD

O Captain, My Captain by Black Rapture Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 32]
Summary:

His friend, his brother, his lover. Their story is only logical.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Humor, Romance
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: Abrams Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 11 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 25233 Read Count: 37048
[Report This] Published: 06/22/2009 Updated: 08/17/2009
Reviewer: Tatya Signed
Date: 06/23/2009 Title: Chapter 1: Our Fearful Trip is Done

I like this, I really do *-* From Spock mingling in the star (yes, yes... you don't want to change their relatioship, you sly old bastard XD we all believe you XD) to their soft dance later. Definitively a favourite!^_^

Of Sentinels and Anchors by Corpus Invictus Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 15]
Summary:

Written for the Star Trek XI Kink Meme prompt found here: "AU: Spock was raised on Earth with no Vulcan influence in his life."  This is my first AU in the Star Trek fandom and deals with the idea of a more humanized Spock with far less control over his telepathic abilities.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: Amanda, McCoy, Uhura
Crossover Fandom: AU or Mirror Universe
Genres: Kirk/Spock Pre-Slash, Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Angst, Character Study, Erotica, First Time, Hurt/Comfort
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: AU Alternate Universe, Abrams Universe
Warnings: Explicit violence
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 12545 Read Count: 10936
[Report This] Published: 09/13/2009 Updated: 09/13/2009
Reviewer: Tatya Signed starstarstarstarstar
Date: 09/13/2009 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

This is one of the best stories I have never read. :) It is precise, possible, and heartbreaking... poor Spock he is a cutie é.è *hugs*.

I love how you menaged the pon-farr thing :D Spock doesn't even know what is happening aaaahw  *_*

And I like the format, also :) it is somewaht fluid :)

Summary:

Written for the Star Trek XI Kink Meme prompt found here: “Five people who loved Spock and the one he loved back. Can include OCs, Uhura, whatever. :) Bonus points for creativity with those five people!”


Categories: Fiction
Characters: Chapel, McCoy, T'Pring, Uhura
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: First Time, Humor, Romance
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: Abrams Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 7657 Read Count: 7767
[Report This] Published: 09/13/2009 Updated: 09/13/2009
Reviewer: Tatya Signed
Date: 09/13/2009 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

This is sweet and hot :D So cute... two fics in one! First the five people who loved Spock, and then Jim&Spock First Time... Jim knows how to get his man. I agree that a "logical" argoment was the best idea "against" Spock. You write them very well indeed, including Spock struggle against his training :)

A Gilded Hook by Elldritchhorrors Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 36]
Summary:

Kirk was worried. Something wasn’t right. He was having trouble sleeping. Wasn’t eating. And those dreams. Those goddamn dreams

 

A love story.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: McCoy
Crossover Fandom: ST:TOS Original Universe
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Action/Plot, Character Study, Hurt/Comfort, Romance
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: Abrams Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 9966 Read Count: 18939
[Report This] Published: 10/06/2009 Updated: 10/06/2009
Reviewer: Tatya Signed
Date: 10/06/2009 Title: Chapter 1: “Wer geteilt, ist, hat, nicht, mitzuteilen”- Bargeld

I would suggest a Caveat Lector warning :)



Author's Response:

Nah. Readers should ALWAYS beware.

 

Plus, I think my name is already a bit of a caveat lector.

Reviewer: Tatya Signed
Date: 10/07/2009 Title: Chapter 1: “Wer geteilt, ist, hat, nicht, mitzuteilen”- Bargeld

Well, following your reasoning, we should have no warnings at all since us readers should always be aware ;P

I would suggest you to use it^^

 



Author's Response:

"About warnings: The policy of this archive is to leave warnings to the author's discretion. If you prefer to label your story with warnings, please do so, but it is not required."

Suggest all you like. I don't like to soften the impact of my writing. There isn't any rape, so I'm not triggering there. Should I warn for violence? This is Star Trek. It is full of violence. This story is about the mind, not the vessels that carry it- commentary on a much broader scope than just the action. Should I warn for the biggie and remove all shock value, rendering the story pointless since all that build up was focused on something people are already anticipating? I'm not going to shoot myself in the foot.

If there was a warning for hitchcockian mindfuckery I might use that, but since there isn't...

None of the other reviewers seem to mind. If you are somehow this site's complaint department and you've been fielding an inbox full of "oh no she didn't!", please contact me at my email, instead of condescendingly taking it upon yourself to correct my antisocial inability to warn for things that functioning adults can handle.

Yes. I am getting snippy. I'm not breaking any rules, and you are not my mother.

Spock's Code by Ladyhawk Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 45]
Summary:

Spock has had a problem since he was very young...

 

Note: no cellophane was overused in the making of this fic.

 

Complete as of 1/18/2010


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Character Study
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: AU Alternate Universe
Warnings: Explicit violence
Series: None
Chapters: 14 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 31291 Read Count: 48214
[Report This] Published: 10/18/2009 Updated: 01/18/2010
Reviewer: Tatya Signed
Date: 10/18/2009 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

Dexter into Star Trek? I can't say to like it (thought the Dexter serie is somewhat interesting). Some thing just don't "blend" well in my opinion :)

I would suggest a Caveat Lector warning :)

 

on the other side, you write very, very well :)



Author's Response:

I don't even know what Caveat Lector means. I'll check it out and see if it applies. Thank you.

Enterprising Tours by Dana Austin Marsh Rated: ADULT (NC-17) starstarstarstarstar [Reviews - 10]
Summary:

Kirk and Spock decide to use different places on the Enterprise to make love while it is deserted during a re-fit, unaware that some crewmembers have started tours through the ship. Originally published in the 1994 print fanzine Kaleidoscope # 2, edited by Emily Adams.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Humor
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 10147 Read Count: 5861
[Report This] Published: 10/19/2009 Updated: 10/19/2009
Reviewer: Tatya Signed
Date: 10/19/2009 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

I just CAN'T STOP laughing! XD

This fanfiction is altogheter too funny XD I loved poor Spock and Kirk... and I adore the four young boys! XD XD XD

I really do XD I think they will make *wonderful* officers soon... and that Jim Kirk won't be too harsh with them.

 

And I bet Spock and Kirk will laugh at this, one day XD maybe soon. I adore your writing as much as the boys, by the way. You really caught life on the Enterprise!



Author's Response:

Thank you for the comments, Tatya. I'm glad you enjoyed this and other of my stories. Nice to hear I gave you your laugh for the day.

Second Chances by Limited-Fantasy Rated: All Audiences starstarstarstarhalf-star [Reviews - 5]
Summary:

Admiral Kirk's managed to get one  of things he's wanted for three years, but not the other. Post TMP.


Categories: Fiction
Characters: McCoy
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Pre-Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Angst
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: Scrambled Communiqués
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 3377 Read Count: 5307
[Report This] Published: 10/24/2009 Updated: 10/24/2009
Reviewer: Tatya Signed
Date: 10/24/2009 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

you CAN'T leave us like this! ç_ç

 



Author's Response:

I'm not that mean (maybe). XD Prequel and sequel are 70% complete, so bear with me while I finish them within the next few weeks.

Summary:

CONGRATULATIONS! You are now the proud owner of a CAPTAIN JAMES KIRK unit!  Follow the guidelines in this manual and your KIRK will give you decades of quality performance. K/S.



Categories: Fiction
Characters: McCoy
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Humor
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: Abrams Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 2214 Read Count: 6148
[Report This] Published: 10/25/2009 Updated: 10/25/2009
Reviewer: Tatya Signed starstarstarstar
Date: 10/25/2009 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

LOL this is HILARIOUS! XD I would like a KIRK 1.0 better though  *_* Pine is good-looking but... too young! u.u (I am 24 years old, btw XD)

 

questions!!! Where did you found the one about Spock? *_*



Author's Response:

Thank you!  Hahaha Pine is too young and he's five years older than you?  Whatever floats your boat, babe. XD I'll put in one order for Kirk 1.0 and he should arrive shortly. 

I found the one about Spock in the TOS section of fanfiction.net.

Sleep by spirk-sporked Rated: All Audiences starstarstarstarhalf-star [Reviews - 14]
Summary:

Takes place in the ending of the TOS episode, "Requiem for Methusulah". In third person, but namely from the POV of Spock's thoughts. Just my take on the situation. Pre-slash. Sort of angsty desire, I guess. xP


Categories: Fiction
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: Kirk/Spock Pre-Slash
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: Angst
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: ST:TOS Original Universe
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 945 Read Count: 3856
[Report This] Published: 06/10/2010 Updated: 06/10/2010
Reviewer: Tatya Signed
Date: 06/10/2010 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

A very good fic! And even a best first fic. Your Spock is very believable and he isn't the easiest character to portrait :D it is all so true...

You write well indeed :)

by Rated: [Reviews - ]
Summary:
Categories: Orphan
Characters: None
Crossover Fandom: None
Genres: None
Other Languages: None
Specific movie: None
Story Type: None
Trope (OPTIONAL): None
Universe: None
Warnings: None
Series: You Don't Have To Be My Family, Written in the Stars
Chapters: 0 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 0 Read Count: 0
[Report This] Published: 01/01/1970 Updated: 01/01/1970
Reviewer: Tatya Signed starstarhalf-star
Date: 08/05/2010 Title: Chapter 1: Reparations

You write very well, but I am not sure if I like this story. The characterization of both Spock and Kirk doesn't ring very true to me, not even as Reboot (Kirk is growing during the movie, and this is one of the thing I loved in it) while here he seems struck on the "pause" button at the bar scene when he meets Pike.

I don't really understand if it is him who exagerates or if he is here really the Worst Captain Ever (and I doubt starfleet would keep giving him missions is he keeps making people die, PR is all very good, but the truth of war reports has a nasty habit of showing up sooner or later).

Also, Spock is... undefinied. I don't understand if he is here for his duty of for friendship (which apparently here doesn't exist, so, scratch that) of for some UST.

In short: the style of this story is breath-taking, and I am not kidding. It is raw but in a good way, strong, and convey all the points. It makes you *feel* what Kirk is feeling, which is good. But the characterizations and motives are rather awry. This feels like a chapter in a longer story throws here for a change. In a longer story it could be explained why Kirk feels like that, why Spock is there, what really happened. Like this, it doesn't make much sense.

I am sorry for the rather brutal feedback :( but I am honest in those things. 5 stars because of your wonderful writing style^^



Author's Response: I'm not going to jump down your throat for daring to criticize my work, no worries. I am, however, going to ask you some questions to help put things in perspective.  Have you ever been very drunk, very angry and very hurt (not to mention feeling guilty and insecure and the rest of the mess of emotion and painful memories that's happening in this story)? If no, then this story will be a stretch for you. If yes, how clear were your perceptions? Can you look back on your thoughts and actions, under those circumstances, and say they were a true and accurate representation of everything that you are when you're not struggling with that kind of pain and anger? Or did you wallow and use your pain to distort reality and see everything through the lens of drunk, angry, and hurt? It's an important distinction to make here, that this is told through Kirk's eyes and he's not exactly in a rational state of mind. Reexamine the story through that lens and Kirk's 'old avenues of self destruction' ( emphasis on OLD, as in habits dying hard - because there is comfort in the familiar, even if the familiar isn't particularly comfortable) and hopefully Kirk's characterization and the POV resolve themselves. If you still think I failed after that, please let me know. The flippant comment on Spock's sense of duty and friendship kind of baffles me. Kirk states explicitly that he feels betrayed because he trusted Spock, makes mention that Spock is one of the few people that he does trust 'to not hurt him'. I'd say that's a pretty strong case for a friendship, at the very least. Now remember that Kirk is drunk and angry and hurt and separate the baggage of Kirks perspective from Spock's reactions. How do they read now? He makes no moves to defend himself, he tries to apologize and he accepts all of Kirk's accusations and punishments and THEN he holds him gently and helps him home. Why would he do that? Surely not just out of duty? Perhaps he thinks Kirk's anger is justified and feels the need to make 'reparations'? As for the actual event leading up to this scene... Kirk is obviously feeling guilty that he didn't make it in time to save the colonists. Further to that, he thinks he should have been able to save them and is angry at himself for not making it in time. Further to THAT he was successful in tracking down the murderers but he doesn't feel he was justified in killing them. I don't need, or want, to write that story so I gave it to you in the first couple of paragraphs. It's the emotion that I wanted here, the what happens after. Now, starfleet obviously disagrees with Kirk's interpretation of events, hence the medal. But Kirk is angry, drunk and hurt so he's spinning everything in the worst possible light.  Then, in addition to not being able to save the colonists, he's facing the fact that he IS capable of 'murder' and having trouble coming to terms with that. Hence, the self loathing and frequent comparisons to his image on the holos and the ubiquitous billlboard. Its a metaphor.   As awful as this is, kirk's also dealing with a deep, personal betrayal, so keenly that he can't even bear to name it in his own head. What was his last threat to Spock? What other allusions does he make to the betrayal? What would someone that holds onto his scars, so absolutely that seeing them removed from a billboard unsettles him, fear the most? Hopefully the story makes more sense now, I deliberately left it ambiguous and unresolved because I wanted it to feel as messy and complicated as real life so often is.

Reviewer: Tatya Signed
Date: 08/06/2010 Title: Chapter 1: Reparations

No no... you haven't understood what I was trying to say :)

Being drunk and hurt is all good, but what lacks here, at least what I felt was lacking, is the Thruth about why Kirk is getting drunk. I understand it was wanted on your part, you desired to left it "open". Yet, as much as I can stylistically understand, I must also say that, withouth some background information about the reasons Jim Kirk is getting drunk, I don't think it is In Character with the person he was in the end of the movie.

There is a wonderful story very similar to this about TOS, and it was very credible. Because the author gave us the reason behind Kirk self-destructive approach (to the point of a more serious self-harming than in yours)

All the question marks in your reply to my comment means exactly that: there is something... not here in the story. It lacks something. It is more like a chapter than an one shot, and as a chapter I can't see a sense in neither their reactions. Sure, it could be... a lot of things. But it is undefinied and therefore too vague to make such extreme reactions, on both their part, "adeguate" :)

I would love to see a whole fanfiction about this, that is for sure :)



Author's Response:

Have you ever reached a point in a conversation where you suddenly realized somebody was Just Not Getting It and probably never would?

 

Mine was this: "All the question marks in your reply to my comment means exactly that: there is something... not here in the story."

 

I think we're done now. You're right, this story isn't for you. And if I changed it so it was, it wouldn't be for me.

 

In the meantime, I encourage you to look up the "socratic method" of teaching. Wikipedia is a good place to start.