Date: 07/16/2012 4:36 AM Title: Chapter 28
Spock's attitude towards his mother is shocking. But, have they often seen eye to eye? No. Spock has his reasons for not having her there. His attempted suicide, surely has something to do with his past...something he may have recalled that came to the surface...something that he had buried...when one buries their feelings like Spock has, eventually, because he is human it will come to the surface...you cannot keep emotions in check, forever...like a boiling pot with the lid tightly on....something will bubble up.
Spock has certainly told Amanda honestly what he thinks of her...and he didn't hold anything back...Now, she is gone leaving Jim....beside himself...
Spock may sound different from the Spock we know, an individual who can control his emotinal outburst so easily. Now, he simply can't.
Date: 07/16/2012 4:22 AM Title: Chapter 27
I really like this chapter but you need to read it again. It repeats itself, in many places...and I am not sure about the ending. Does it end with Spock's side. Or was there more in this chapter?
Oh, ffs... There, I think I've fixed that now. I really don't know what keeps going wrong with the formatting - it is so aggravating! And always on the chapters you don't check... Thank you for pointing that out - I wish more people would!
Date: 07/16/2012 4:17 AM Title: Chapter 26
If I could go back in time and live my life again, would I still have my little baby? I don't know… with all the misery he's had to cope with over the years, maybe I wouldn't. with all the misery he's had to cope with over the years, maybe I wouldn't.
Just to let you know, the line repeats.
What a question? Would I have my child if I knew? Well, Jim is sure grateful she did. He says that Spock completes him, and we all believe that. Is the pain Spock went through in life worth it? Only Spock can answer that.
Very moving chapter my dear.
Thanks for pointing that out about the extra line. I've no idea what keeps going wrong with the formatting - it's so annoying!!! Grrrrr...
And thank you very much for keeping on commenting :) Glad you find this chapter moving.
Date: 07/16/2012 4:08 AM Title: Chapter 25
So many things to consider why Spock would take his own life...Jim feeling so helpless...he loves him so much, but it doesn't seem to cure him does it...he isn't any more open... I suppose it would drive anyone nuts ..the not knowing...and thinking that perhaps you didn't do enough in the relationship...if you did ..he wouldn't have attempted suicide...the mind is very complet...so many variables come into play.
Jim is entitled to cry...why not? His emotions, he is wearing them on his sleeve...crying one moment, being hysterical with anger the next...it's normal...
And then we go down memory lane to that dreadful day where he tried to take his life....not pleasant to hear once again...for both I am sure...
Very emotional chapter....really good.
Date: 07/16/2012 3:59 AM Title: Chapter 24
It's tough when you wish for the person you love to get off his arse and be like before...he loves me ..he should make the effort...right? Sometimes, I suppose the victim just doesn't want to come out of his confort zone. He knows what lies ahead...and just doesn't want to face it just yet...and procrastinates. Can I Vulcan procrastinate? Hmmm good question..well he is half human.
Jim reminds me of Shatner and his late wife Nerine...if you love me you will stop drinking....it doesn't work that way....
It's almost like they are strangers doesn't it?
And now we have a visitor...more fun times ahead....
another great chapter, that I can see clearly in my head...great job.
I hadn't thought of the parallel with Shatner and his wife... very astute, Denise! It is true - we think that if you love someone enough then it will conquer all, but it doesn't... Poor Jim, they are strangers at the moment - he's seeing this part of Spock which he didn't acknowledge existed before and it is tough.
Glad you like the chapter - thanks for reviewing!
Date: 07/16/2012 3:50 AM Title: Chapter 23
I can see him eating that chocolate....and being embarrassed being caught....hmmmm Godiva chocolate.
Seriously, I think he's eating more because of boredom, stress, feeling lonely...I think we understand him in that regard...poor Jim...you go ahead and eat that chocolate bonbon..we won't judge you....
Spock is behaving, letting the nurse remove the cast...Love how you describe in detail how the wound looks now...angry india green you called it. How it being covered for so long, not being well ventilated, it would not look pretty.
Now, the cast if off, his arm is bandaged up and has a sling...things are progressing...now the nurse has decided to leave, leaving Jim..lost once again.
Strange how he can go toe to toe with Klingons and Romulans but being alone with Spock..being ill..scares the shit out of him...
And...now he has to see a shrink...fun times ahead...
Love this chapter..well done.
Glad you like it! Thank you :)
Yes, Jim and his comfort eating... you are so right!
Date: 07/12/2012 10:51 AM Title: Chapter 26
Rereading, I find myself seeing Spock's motives more clearly. After a certain number of years of refusal on the part of others of one's existence--particularly as one arrives at adolesence--cutting is a way of not only letting out the disapproved anger, but also of proving one does exist. I bleed, therefore I exist.
And the habit lurks always.
Known facts, but they wake up and bite.
Date: 07/12/2012 12:29 AM Title: Chapter 22
Telling mom her son tried to commit suicide is not something that is easy to deal with....How does one react? Of course the first things comes to mind is ...they should have been better parents...In Spock's case, being a hybrid you are torn between two cultures. You have traits of both, and you can't seriously disregard that other part for the one you prefer. It comes back to haunt you. Do you think it's Spock's human side that instigated the suicide or his Vulcan side...hmmm interesting thought.
Jim was beside himself...relaying the news ....saying that word...it is scary...and I believe it hit him real hard when he said it...poor Jim....courage...courage..
Great chapter..love the Vulcan dialogue as well.
Interesting question... was it the human or the vulcan side of him that made Spock attempt suicide? I don't really know. It's probably not as clear cut as that - is Spock really divided into two distinct 'halves' or are they more integrated than we tend to suppose? He doesn't seem to have a split personality so maybe the question is misleading... But anyway. Spock is suffering from depression. Can full vulcans get depression? We don't know, but there's no reason to suppose that they can't. It may be that they DON'T, due to rigorous emotional control, but that's not the same thing as CAN'T. In a depressed person's mind, suicide often seems like the 'right' thing to do - perhaps to a vulcan it would be the 'logical' thing to do. Of course, looked at objectively it is not, but they do not realise that their reasoning is affected by the depression. So that is one possibility - vulcan half attempts suicide because it is the 'logical' solution to its perceived problems. On the other hand, there is the human side which we know is childlike and neglected. Humans are most definitely able to get depression and feel suicidal! Perhaps this half of him got the upper hand in this instance, as it sometimes does, and that is why.
There is another possibility. All his life, Spock has been trying to repress his humanity with vulcan control; the human half feels attacked - the vulcan half is attempting to kill it. When the depression comes and the vulcan control is failing because of it, human (who is also depressed) says: 'okay, you wanted me to die - I'll die. I'll kill myself.' And its revenge is that this way, the vulcan oppressor which it secretly hates, dies too. This is how I'm inclined to see this situation. It's all about coming to terms with who you are and realising that you cannot suppress this other part of you - it won't work and it will have serious consequences for everyone. It's also about trust, as we shall see later.
Anyway, I'm glad you enjoyed this chapter and the vulcan dialogue! Thank you so much for commenting :)
Date: 07/12/2012 12:19 AM Title: Chapter 21
I love how you described their wedding, and their wedding night....eat, sleep and make love...and did it all over again...love Amanda throwing confetti....I know Jim is feeling left out...and he can't help feeling sorry for himself..but he just hasn't gone through was Spock has...it's a slow process...patience Jim..patience..
Date: 07/10/2012 3:31 AM Title: Chapter 20
As soon as the words were out of his mouth, Kirk was shocked at himself – but really, what did Spock except?
I read this several times..is it the correct word here...is it except or expect. Just curious..
Damn Jim really needs to understand that he married Spock for better or worse....surely feeding someone some soup is not the end of the world..You should be happy he's actually eating it...
Well done, you've spotted a type - that should be expect not except!
Date: 07/10/2012 3:24 AM Title: Chapter 19
I remember this chapter...how shocked Jim was that the nurse was giving him a bath..I have to agree with the nurse...when a person has been injured but is recuperating somewhat...he should be integrated back in societies daily activities..and seriously..a little sponge bath is not going to kill him...so Jim's attitude was I think a little bit exaggerated.
I know he's a Vulcan and all that..and for someone to touch him....actually I think Jim should have given him the bath...